Re-directing Your Marriage; Finding Your Lost Commitment

Most of us go along with our lives, doing a job, having a home, and living the mundane life of this conservative world; often forgetting what is most important to you.

Issues and triggers come up in marriage/relationships, and what many do to deal with them is find an escape; a place to go and something to distract them from what is really upsetting them in their hearts. Many think that it is not possible to get to the bottom of their relationship struggles, and in a majority of cases, the partner, significant other, husband and even the wife, will look for an escape route to their biggest pains. There are few brave souls who are willing to do the deeper work, but more often than not, couples feel distant, frustrated, hurt and alone.

How do you find your love again that is hidden inside your heart? You find it by taking responsibility for your actions, your behaviors, your ways of being and being authentically honest with what you are truly feeling; the pain that has turned into resentment, the anger that has turned into rage, and the sadness that has turned into despair. When you can come to the truth of who you are, speak this truth and communicate it verbally or through written letter, a new peace can replace the darkness that you are carrying around with you.

Many come to me looking for an escape, and yes, I can certainly offer you an escape, however, the goal is not to maintain an escape and continue looking for ways of running away, but instead running towards that which you are most fearful of; your own feelings, your own emotions and your hidden self inside your heart. When you can find the truth within you, and be truly authentic about how you've been behaving towards yourself and towards the ones you really love, your true love for your loved ones will return to you, and in your love returning to you, you get to be a different way with those in your lives, and in your being a person who authentically shows love, forgiveness, acceptance and peace towards those you care about the most, they then will give you in return, what you have deeply longed for all along.

My wish for you, is that you learn to be authentic to your own behaviors, take responsibility and allow a new vulnerability with yourself and your loved ones to awaken, and in this awakening, you get everything you ever dreamed of.

Boundaries in Intimacy

As a woman, a Goddess & a Practitioner, I have many distinctions between how I represent myself in my work and how I am for others. I am not here as a replacement for your girlfriend or wife, but I am here to offer Healing, Support and awareness to your own journey.

There have been many moments where I have been in session with clients, and I have had to move the clients arm, or tell them directly, it is not appropriate to touch me in my sacred areas, nor even try to kiss me and that it is not acceptable. There may be other Goddesses who play the role of escort, submissive, or surrogate, but this is not my profession and not something I choose.

I am here as a Goddess Healer, one who helps transform areas of your life that are not working for you, and targets the specific blocks that are keeping you from fully experiencing and enjoying your own body and your ability to receive and give love to others in your life. This is my specialty. I am like Kali Ma, and am here not for you to take on as a lover, but to learn and grow with and transcend, over time, the darkness within yourself that is keeping you from your own pleasure, joy and experience of love.

Boundaries in Intimacy are just what the words speak; if you have a desire, it must be spoken of openly and communicated before any action is taken, and if desires or needs change, then it is imperative to speak again when the new intention arises.

You must always ask permission before taking an action with your Goddess, wife, girlfriend or Beloved, otherwise, it can feel like violation, force, an expectation and in some cases sexually abusive. Women are very sensitive to their bodies, and if no words are spoken before an intimate encounter about the intentions of the engagement, there is no sacredness and there is no trust. And at the other end, when you do ask permission, make a request and set a clear intention of your full desires, needs and how you want to create the encounter, full trust, openness, love and intimacy has the opportunity to be built.

Women are not to be taken advantage of, but to be loved, honored, respected and adored. And, not one woman is an exception.

Unfolding Pleasure

What does it mean when you read the words "Unfolding Pleasure?"

Unfolding Pleasure is about the unlimited ability to unravel and peel the layers of our-self to reveal and awaken the joy, the bliss, the love, the harmony and the pleasure underneath. Our bodies are capable of continuing to release the blocks that we carry around ourselves. And just as our bodies can release these layers, so can our minds, our thoughts, our thinking process, our emotions, our hearts and our entire energy system. When all these parts of our-selves are cleared and released of the darkness held within them, we can then unfold the tight vessel and cocoon that we live in and awaken the butterfly of our true essence.

Unfolding Pleasure is an ever unfolding to our natural abilities, our pure innocence and our innate talents and joys as a human being. If everyone could feel pleasure all the time and be in a state of bliss and joy in every moment, then no work would need to be done and we would almost be walking as if we were a state of an angel that had already transcended. Everyone on the planet has layers to unravel, otherwise, we would not be here.

I welcome you to unfold your layers and be awakened to the bliss that is hidden deep within!

May you always know that your ability to be vulnerable and present to what you are dealing with in the moment, is the exact thing that will give you access to your own power and joy of living!

Namaste,
Asttarte

New Posts Coming Soon!

Communicating With Love; Creating Intimacy With Your Words

Life Enhancement Love Enhancement

Tantra Is Life; The Misconception of the "word" Tantra

Yet Another Breakthrough - Transformation with Love

I am feeling deeply blessed, honored and rewarded today for all the hard work I have been doing to get to this point. As we take responsibility of our actions, and our ways of being, new things can blossom, and in this moment something new has blossomed.

I am in the ILP Program, in other words, Introduction to Leadership Program; which truly is a program that launches one into full blown mastery of their own leadership - nothing light of the subject in the least. It is not like becoming a Leader of a certain craft or a skill, but instead it is a leadership of oneself, a full integration of the entire way one has been their entire life, by facing all that has been keeping you from living as a victim, in denial, and been an observer in life, instead of a mover, a shaker, an initiator and activator of your own dreams, desires and intentions.

In this moment, I am grateful for one thing in particular, but actually for many things. From this work, my relationship with my family and my mom in particular is dynamite; I don't ever remember being as close and connected as we are now. The second thing, I am moving into Leadership as a practitioner in a way I never knew was possible before. I am a stand for all people who come to me to truly get what they need, be inspired, feel loved, supported, nurtured and empowered as a human being. It is not just that I do Spiritual Healing and Coaching for you, but that what I do is help awaken blocked energies and truly open yourself to feel consciousness in areas in the body that were never awake before; be that emotionally, spiritually or physically, from anywhere to anything you can think of!

The third breakthrough I am truly Blessed most of all, is that through this program, I took a stand to be a powerful mom, and in taking this stand a breakthrough has happened with my child's father. What I realized is that I was being a Tiger Lady, righteous in my way of being with him; of course I am the loving gentle Healer with everyone else, but when it came to the person I was the closest to, I was really making him wrong. What I realized is that I was deeply angry for him not committing to me, and in realizing that it was him that I truly wanted, I got that there was no way that he could trust me when all I have been doing is not accepting him. And in now accepting him, he gets to start to build a trust, and a foundation can be built where the commitment I have deeply desired can become manifest in our reality. It will take steps, and continued active supportive communication, but the groundwork has been laid and the seed has been built. For this I am truly grateful!

I am excited that my son is now in school and presently I am available Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays from 10:00am until 5:30pm and on Saturday mornings from 8:30am until 11:30am. In the month of June, my schedule will be changing. I make the announcement when it is confirmed.

With Love, Namaste & Blessings!

Visioning The Future

In the past I spoke of starting a Healing Temple and having it be a space for classes, events, gatherings and private sessions, but as I am moving more my true hearts desire for the future, my vision is much larger than this.

What I see is a Healing Temple, Institute & a Community Living center all in one. I envision a large mansion size home separated into parts. The main area of the bottom floor for classes, events, & gatherings. The back of the bottom floor having built an addition with several rooms for private healing sessions. The top floor for community living space for men, women, children, couples and families. or a large area of land with many small buildings contained in a

Purifying the Body

The journey to cleansing and purifying oneself is not an easy task, but so worth it.

When I was in high school, I was an avid athlete. I was on the track team every fall, the swim team every winter, the tennis team every spring and had three young brothers to play the role of tom boy with. I also joined the ski team for fun with my high school and our rival school in the same town every year. I rode a mountain bike, played basketball in the driveway, kicked the soccer ball around, threw the football with my brothers, played ping pong with my mom; who was on the team in college herself, and even tried out for field hockey. I loved sports and kept myself very busy as a young woman.

In my early twenties, I discovered I had multiple cavities one after the next. My teeth had lost their protective coating and I had to go to the dentist to get fillings put in. I did not know anything about the content of the fillings; all I knew is that I needed them.

I discovered soon after, my body went into shock and I had muscle knots everywhere and had a hard time walking. I needed pain relievers but had refused to take them. I lived in the bath tub, and with persistence and struggle found myself going to acupuncturists, chiropractors, massage therapists, the hot tub, steam room & sauna. After about 4 years of committing myself to the natural alternatives to pain, I found myself going to school for Acupressure and Massage. The pain is what lead me on the path. The pain lead me to transform myself inside and out.

About 10 years on this journey later, I discovered what the side effects are of amalgom/mercury heavy metal fillings can do to the body. My heart sank. I cried for tears of joy. A conclusion to a struggle I never knew existed.

I have had 2 fillings taken out and replaced with a healthier alternative so far. The 2nd one I had replaced only one week ago. My body has been a little tired going through a detox, but already I notice a difference. I can carry my son from the car to inside, and I haven't felt the throbbing pain that usually causes me to put him down in a hurry. I can jump into warrior pose without feeling the need to breathe through the pain. A couple days ago, my son ran to me in a sprint, and I picked him up over my head and spun him around, about 4 times in a row. I felt no discomfort. I did, however, feel a little tired. From these small examples, I am super excited, as I know only progress will continue. Soon I'll be doing forward flips off a diving board and on a mat. Oh, I forgot to tell you, I used to be a gymnast. This was one of my favorite things to do. Other benefits of this will be that I'll be able to give much longer and deeper massages, and most likely more often! Only time will tell, but the patience to get where I am now has been well worth it!

Blessings to life!

New Philadelphia Meetup Group

Check out the new meetup group for Philadelphia: Temple of Love Philadelphia!
You will find this same description at the site. Feel free to join if you want to be a part of and notified of groups, gatherings and events!

Temple of Love Philadelphia

The next Gathering will be on Thursday evening, March 25th!

http://asttartedeva.com/#/temple-of-love-meetup/4548238794

I started this group to bring together those on the path who want to go deeper, those new to find a place to learn, and those eager for community to have a place to feel love, experience healing and be nurtured in bliss!
The purpose of the group is to help the city of Philadelphia open their hearts, their minds and nurture their soul!
People who are desiring a deeper meaning in life, a feeling of connection and a system of support should join.
Philadelphia has been untapped. There are many places around the world offering Tantra and Philadelphia has been left behind. I have been trained by mentors, gurus and teachers all throughout the world for over 14 years, but my home base is here in Philadelphia. It is time for me to share my rich knowledge of healing and love.
We will explore basic practices of healing up to extremely advanced practices of healing. Each Meetup we will cover something different. Some examples are: Reiki Shares, Reiki Initiation classes, Self Healing Practices, Empowerment For Women, Yin Yoga for Beginners, Yin Yoga for women & Mothers, Massage Gathering, Tantra Study Group, Emotional & Stress Release Techniques, Ascension Meditation Gathering (Raising Your Vibration Gathering), Kundalini Awakening Meditation, Spiritual Play Group (for parents and children), Tantra Dance & more!

You may find my personal website at www.AwakenToLiving.com and the Philadelphia Temple Practitioner site at www.TempleOfLove.info

See also my Hugging Power Classes at www.HuggingPower.com

& http://asttartedeva.com/#/temple-of-love-meetup/4548238794

All events will also be posted at http://eastcoasttantra.ning.com/ but if you want to stay in touch and be sure to get the updates you need, joining my email list on the main page of the blog under Email signup! 


Much Much Love to you!
Asttarte

Hugging Power Class went amazing!!!

“ This was a fantastic event! Everyone communicated with me about getting there. Bill and I picked everyone up
due to the snow on his street & communication was excellent and
they were all at the location waiting for us. When we arrived together,
everyone helped with setting up the blankets, & moving things
around to make space in the room.

We all joined together in love, harmony & powerful intentions. We
welcomed ourselves in a circle, and spoke of our intentions, what we were working on in ourselves presently and what we wanted to get out of the group.

We did an amazing energy orgasm meditation & moved into grounding our energies, and then talked about the experience afterwards and what everyone got out of it.
The meditation itself would have sufficed for everyone's satisfaction, but then we moved into
a circle again to do eye gazing and connection with everyone in the
room, and again spoke about the experience when we were complete.

Then I guided everyone to partner up with each person in the room to do a healing embraced hug for healing and
everyone got a chance to give each other a hug. Women to women, women
to men, & men to men. It was a powerful experience for the men in
hugging their brothers and feeling a spiritual non-sexual connection with other men
& being nurtured by the women, & for
women to give and receive. It was awesome! ”

My intention is to have more women at the event next time and for the group to be more balanced. It's time to find some open minded women and help women let down their guards!

See meetup group expanded from:
http://www.meetup.com/Temple-Of-Love-Philadelphia/

Classes and meetups will also be announced regularly at:
http://eastcoasttantra.ning.com/

Namaste,

Asttarte

Creating Sacred Space

As a mom living alone with my son, running my practice alone and working 3 days a week, it is my intention to have a sacred space to offer the sessions I love with a vision of beauty, clarity and cleanliness. It was my intention, as a new years resolution, to find an assistant, and to support me in starting my tantra temple & a vision of a home that reflects a healing space.

I have moved all of my child's toys, books and items into his own room and made room for the living room that is in view when people enter my space to be cleanly. I have moved the boxes of paperwork that were on the floor and made it appear to be a mess, to a place that is hidden from view. I also moved a leather chair that was in my child's room to the living room which now makes it feel more cozy and comfortable to relax in for friends and company.

Everything that was in the hallway is now gone except for a couple bags I intend to give to someone in need. In the process of turning my child's room from a baby's room to a little boy's room, I will be removing the crib, high chair and changing table and bringing in a bunk bed, a small table to the floor for playing and eating and a toy box. I am turning a small room that had little use except for storage and changing into something that will make my whole place a lot nicer and more of a joy for my little guy to indulge in.

Blessings to being in order and having a life of comfort!

Asttarte

Hugging Power Class

The Power of the Breath & The Value of Hugging class is a gentle class for those who wish to have a hands on experience that is safe and fun. This class will offer you a new way of learning the art of healing and can create connection to the divine and to those in your lives.
Hugging Power Class is like a Yoga class, but instead of asanas it is tantra yoga practices of eye gazing, breathing practices, energy movement with awareness and the breath and slow connection of hugging from selecting someone in the room with your eyes. It will be an opportunity to heal and break down barriers that keep people distant and letting down walls of intimacy; for the present moment and the future.

We will talk about present concerns, issues, needs or boundaries and then move into the class. You may also choose to be an observer and witness the class before choosing to participate.

It will be an hour and 1/2 or 2 of this and then people are welcome, if they choose, to move into hugging and cuddling on the floor. I will start out with a gentle meditation, a chakra opening meditation, a kundalini raising meditation, or a sexual chakra meditation. It depends on the audience and their energy and experience. You will never have to do anything you don't want to. And saying "No" is not a crime. 1 1/2 to 2 hour basic class - $20.00 donation or what you can.
1st class is free, unless you choose to donate!

The class is scheduled for Friday night, Feb. 19th from 7:30 until we're done!
Feel free to RSVP at the meetup group or East Coast Tantra below!

All classes are done in a group setting with an average of 10 to 20 people.

Hugs are safe and create connection and healing
in a way never taught before.

See also www.HuggingPower.com

http://www.meetup.com/Temple-Of-Love-Philadelphia/calendar/12464903/

http://eastcoasttantra.ning.com/events/hugging-power-class

The Yin & Yang of Energy

Balancing energies of our own energy body vehicle; our inner selves with our outer selves is what will ultimately allow others to achieve the state of ecstatic bliss one often reads about.

Our inner selves is our mind, our thoughts and our emotions, as well as the energy within our bodies. This includes the energy in our muscle tissues, our fibers, our meridian channels, our spinal column, our organs and most importantly the chakras up and down our bodies. The Tantra Kundalini Awakening Breathwork practice or practices can allow some of this energy to be opened, but it is also important to do personal psychotherapy on oneself, as well as chakra meditations, energy healing and any modalities to release the energy within the body.

As the energy within is opened, purified and cleansed the wave of bliss can flow more easily up and down your energy channel, as well as in and out of your pores, your breath and your chakras.

Our outer selves; the energy around the body, the auric field, the energy body or whatever you wish to call it also needs to be purified. As the energy outside your physical body is cleansed it allows you to feel more of your sensations on your physical body. The chakras reside within the body and outside the body, so it is important to clear the entire chakra; not just inside, but also outside, and intend, visualize and imagine it pure. As you see areas of darkness, ask for it to be released, ans visualize the beautiful color of that chakra radiating its beauty.

As your entire energy field around your body is cleared, there becomes a synchronistic flow of energy that waves from within your body to the outside, and from the top of your body to the bottom. In and out, up and down, and flows all around. As this energy is clear, all possibilities and energy flowing can be achieved, and this then is the state we all wish to feel, experience and aliven. It allows a deep feeling of ecstasy and bliss that most only read about and few have the privilege of achieving.

This is what I teach. This is what I offer. I offer you balance; from within to without and the flow of energy you carry to be cleared, purified and then awakened to the state of pure utter energetic ecstasy! This is my gift to you!

Unveiling the Eyes

Philadelphia is filled with people who are armored, on the defense, ready to attack or always in fear that they themselves will be. Out of everywhere in the world, where we reside, in Philadelphia, is known to be the most angry, hostile and scared human beings. The theme is success, wealth and looking good. Most are open to yoga and know of it, as it is a practice that many think is strictly about toning the body and getting in shape. However, there are other levels to yoga that are not as known. Yoga offers healing that can open the heart at a level no other physical exercise can offer.

When people cross by each other on the street, there are very few who will take the time to look into your eyes; even fewer smile out of courtesy to be polite. It is a rare occasion that someone driving will wait for you as you pull your car out of a spot or slowly get into your spot while you attempt to parallel park. Many are impatient, rude, always rushing, in a hurry to get to x, y, and z; often not even knowing why they are in such a hurry.

In the practice of eye gazing, there is a window of opportunity that allows you to be met with love, creating intimacy with another just for the pure innocence of loving. Like the affection from a mother caressing her baby with love as she gazes at her child; that feeling of being in love with your baby that a parent often feels is the same unconditional love that can be created through eye gazing.

As you look into anothers eyes, and are met with the same persistent gaze of commitment as the person looking at you, the wall of defense, the armor that our eyes can sometimes live in, is given an opportunity to melt away. The eyes are the window to the soul, and I like to view them as an extension of the heart. As you sit in the eye gazing meditation with another, the tears of armor has a chance to be revealed, released and dropped away. Literally tears can sometimes arrive; not as a sign of weakness that you have sadness, but rather, a courage that you are willing to be seen and hold presence for or from another, and the tears symbolize that armoring falling away. As the armor falls away, from our eyes/from our hearts, a deeper connection of intimacy has a chance to be created; a feeling of safety, of love, of beauty, of pure connection to another. Only through being vulnerable and allowing oneself to be seen, be met, be grounded in anchoring your heart to the earth with the connection to another is the opportunity for deep connection of intimacy allowed to be manifest.

So love, let your love in, let others love you, and open yourself to allowing the truth of your heart to give to others in love. There is no greater gift on this planet than love. It is what everyone desires!

All my Love,

Asttarte

Session Preparation

***What to do before a Session!!!***

There are several things you can do to prepare yourself before a session.


First there is preparing the mind:

You could start with educating yourself on several subjects.




















The Mastery of Love, by; Don Miguel Ruiz
The Awakening of Kundalini, by: Gopi Krishna
Tantra; the Art of Conscious Loving, by: Charles & Caroline Muir
Jewel in the Lotus; The Sexual Path to Higher Consciousness, by: Sunyata Saraswati & Bodhi Avinasha


Second there is preparing the body:

• You could go and get a regular massage at a salon or any practitioner of your choice. (or you could get an extended session with me and choose any massage techniques I offer at http://asttartedeva.com/#/massage-therapy/4551711308)

• Take a yoga class; any you are drawn to, vinyasa yoga, ashthanga yoga, bikram yoga, yin yoga, hatha yoga, kripalu yoga, iyengar yoga, power yoga, classic yoga, any yoga for beginners, athletes, or anything that inspires you. (I am also happy to offer you a private 1 hr yoga class before our session)

• Take a tantra workshop in NY, NJ or join the beginnings of the tantra community here in Philadelphia for training you into the practices of tantra. These will be announced and are by invitation only. (check out my friends at templeoflove.info. Pamela is only in Frenchtown, NJ and Anita is offering classes in NJ or here in philly with me.)

• Receive a breathwork session in rebirthing with Irene at returntocenter.net, the Philadelphia Rebirthing Center or a referral through Dhyana-Yoga.com, yogaonmain.com or several others I know. You are welcome to ask me.
• See also the links page at my temple site templeoflove.info

And, third there is preparing the spirit:

• A regular routine of a meditation on the breath, the chakras, the energy field or cleansing the mind or spirit would be an excellent practice to do before a session. I will add a post on a chakra meditation to this blog or my main site (I may choose to make my AwakenToLiving blog a 10 page site, instead of 5 and add this post plus expand it as a separate page on my site since it is very needed in Philadelphia. Many dive into tantra without knowing how to prepare or knowing that it is necessary to have a full experience). Any of the practices here will also prepare you.

You are also welcome to join my huggingpower.com classes as they are now in the birthing process and will continue getting stronger throughout the year. Locations will be announced soon.

Expansion and Contraction

A true Tantrica's Journey

If you are truly on the path of tantra, you will not find it an easy journey. It is actually the most challenging, difficult and psychologically draining journey you could ever possibly travel on. You go from the absolute extreme emotions of utter bliss, ecstasy, full body whales of sighing passion to the deepest and most dark places of sadness, gloom, misery, depression, releasing whatever and wherever emotions that have been pulled up from the deepest core inside of yourself.

It took me 5 years of being on this Tantra Path to put words to this journey, but a warning or perhaps a reminder, that this is, if you choose to truly embark on the depth of what tantra offers you, the most challenging journey you could travel.

(Meaning if you truly do the tantra practices exactly as they are meant to be done. There are milder versions of them if you are not ready, which I teach as well, but being a Goddess and Tantra Practitioner, I don't play small. I dive in and do them exactly as they are meant to be done. Yes, I used to have that old sticker on my car as a teenager and young 20s girl NO FEAR! Well, you literally have to have No Fear when you dive into Tantra, because diving into tantra IS like diving into the deep end of a pool, your own pool that is of your own self; the shadow self of the unconscious mind.)

I was in this blissful place over the summer. I was feeling really good, excited about life, making goals and starting to work on them (i.e. one of them was to start a Tantra Community here in Philadelphia with a huge list of details to go underneath it to make it happen). I was in the SELP course through Landmark Education. I was doing my private sessions to the best of my ability with a 3 day a week schedule from taking care of my toddler half the week. I was pretty much high on life. And, then, all of a sudden, I made a drastic decision. I decided to go to my semi-annual Tantra Community event with my tantra family. We met in NY in the middle of nowhere, 2 hours west of the city, at this bed and breakfast place. There was about 35 or 40 people total at this event. It was pretty cold, and few wanted to drive (I was one of maybe 4 or five people who drove), and the rest took a shuttle bus from NY city. Some flew in from out West; actually most flew in from AZ, CA, and other places in the US. But this is my tantra family, or what I consider my tantra family, and I wanted to be with them.

The cat that threw my reality off kilter was my beloved, amazing that is, Tantra Teacher & Practitioner, Lawrence Lanoff. This guy is the most evolved man I have met on this planet. Talk about wisdom and transformation. If you want to change anything in your life, and throw yourself into a gutter of darkness to face whatever patterns have kept you from avoiding the reason why you are miserable or frustrated in your current situation; this guy will throw you off your rocker and turn your whole world around. That's what he did for me; in the mildest of expressions!!!! I did a breathwork exercise with him in NY, this past Oct. And, every time I go to a Conference, he leads a new breathwork exercise I learn at the conference, usually in Sedona, AZ in the spring and somewhere on the East Coast in the fall. And, he blows my mind; literally. Now, what's good is that I can take these teachings and then turn them over and teach them all to you, which I have done over the years, but this time, his teaching, and my taking it on, threw me in a whirlwind, of the deepest depression I have ever been in my life. I went into my own darkness. It's the core of the pit of your own armoring that is carrying your body frame in its particular way of holding patterns, the way you walk, your mannerisms, the way you stand and hold your posture, the way your head turns on a certain angle and how you look at the world and how the world then looks at you. ALL OF THIS, LET ME TELL YOU COMPLETELY CHANGES FROM WORKING WITH THIS MAN!!!

I then did my powerful Tantra Breathwork, which I call Tantra Psychotherapy, practices of Tantra I learned from Laurie Handlers, years ago, to release all of the deep emotions that came up from Lawrence Lanoff's powerful tantra breathwork exercise. Now, each of the breathing exercises are COMPLETELY different, and they all do completely different things!!! How do you compute that? Well, if you really tried it, you would know what I'm talking about!!! So, I used Laurie's Butterfly Workshops Tantra exercises to release what came up (rage, sadness, depression, sorrow, misery, confusion, paranoia, etc), which took about 2 months of doing all these practices religiously and then 3 days ago did Lawrence Lanoff's powerful breathing practice again, and WHAMMMM, would you know, I am feeling wildly passionate, energetic and open as ever again. Like the tiger prowess coming back to life. This Tantra path makes you think you have some serious emotional issues, but in actuality, what it does it remove those serious emotional feelings that cause you to live in a rut and unhappy with your life. They appear to be even more powerful than Psychotherapy itself, but I will not negate psychotherapy at all; however, the combination is mind blowing, and if your heart is closed, you are living in fear, have some scars from abuse, or frustrated in a relationship, and you take tantra to heart, and truly use the practices to help you, it will not only help you. It will liberate your entire body, and your entire soul!

God Bless You, and I hope for you that you do the practices to empower yourself, but be sure to have a practitioner by your side, at the phone, or contact in any way you can for support while your life shows up in your face and makes you look at yourself at what you have been covering for years. You can heal your whole life with Tantra. I am living proof of that!

I am now back, alive, open, awake in my heart, body and soul! And, it feels damn good to be here!

Happy Holidays!

Erotic Literary Salon

I did my first live performance last night at the Erotic Literary Salon. I was extremely nervous, but went ahead anyway. There was 40 people in the audience and I had my long time friend of 14 years at my side. She read erotic poetry, while I, led everyone into a relaxed state of the breath, sang chants to vibrate the entire room, and lead the group into a Kundalini Awakening Breathwork Exercise that was a mini version of the ones I do in session, and I concluded it with my own poem. The response was fabulous and they want to see me again, plus I got an offer to use someone's space for teaching other classes, and was recognized for my singing voice! It was a great turnout! Here is the link for the information of the Erotic Literary Salon.

The founder said she felt like she just did Breath Aerobics, and someone else said that they were brought to tears! I was as loud as I am in private session, and kept my eyes closed and did the exercise with as much passion as always! It was excellent!!!!

Namaste!

http://www.meetup.com/The-Erotic-Literary-Salon/calendar/11899777/

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30 minutes of Consultation
30 minutes of Hug Therapy
1 hour of Reiki or other form of Energy Healing
1 hour of Shiatsu Massage, Jin Shin Do or Thai Yoga Massage Bodywork
A Total of 3 hours of Bliss!
$240 to $300 sliding scale depending on circumstance.
This breaks down to at best $80.00 an hour. A maximum total of $210.00 savings


The Ultimate Tantra Healing Ecstasy Pamper Treatment

30 minutes of Consultation
30 minutes of Hug Therapy
30 minutes of Reiki or other form of Energy Healing
20 minutes of a guided Tantra Breathwork Practice and Instructions of how to do it
(specific breathing practice will be chosen depending on goals and issues that are
communicated during the consultation)
1 hour of Deep Tissue Massage, Shiatsu, Thai Massage, Jin Shin Do or Tantric Massage
while incorporating the breathing practice taught prior to the start of the massage
A Total of 3 hours of Ecstasy!
$300 to $400 sliding scale depending on circumstances
This breaks down to at best $100.00 an hour. A maximum total of $150.00 savings


The Ultimate Emotional Healing Tantric Psychotherapy Treatment

30 minutes of Consultation, or longer if needed
10 minutes of Eye Gazing Deep Breathing Practice
30 minutes of Energy Balancing, Chakra Balancing, Chanting Emotional Release
& Energy Balancing Technique
30 minutes +/- of EFT, Matrix Work, IET (Integrated Energy Therapy) or Sound Therapy (screaming primal animal sounds, punching the floor or air in front of you while releasing anger, sounds and facial expressions, to Powerful Emotional Release Shamanic Puking Exercise!
1 hour of Tantra Shamanic Breathwork, Ocean Breath or Powerful Guided Kundalini Awakening Breath from my Master Teacher (several kinds available to use)
Will Total to 3 Hours of Complete Awakening!
Excellent for those who are ready to take on their emotions, willing to admit their anger or sadness, and want to be empowered to be free of their feelings!
Also fantastic for those going through major changes and transitions in their lives, or for those who are willing to step up to the next level of their evolution!
$300 to $400 sliding scale depending on circumstances
This breaks down to at best $100.00 an hour. A maximum total of $150.00 savings


Also see the
The Ultimate Spirit Energy Alignment Healing Treatment
The Ultimate Physical Stress Body Pampering Treatment
The Ultimate Tantra Workout Energizing Treatment

See original source on my site Awaken To Living at Awaken To Bliss!!!!!

Business Goals, Personal Goals & Leadership

Thank you for finding me here, and if you have known me since I started my Healing practice in Tantra in Oct. of 2005, thank you for staying committed to me as a client and as a friend! If you have known me since I started my spiritual healing practice in 2001, God Bless you. Loyalty and friendship are very important to me, and the process of growth while staying connected to those who have helped you or become friends with you along the way, is a treasure no money can buy!

As I completed the Landmark Curriculum for Living and as they exclaimed, "You Graduated" on Oct. 28, 2009, I came to many of the awareness's I wrote in a previous blog on here. My most recent course was called The Self Expression and Leadership Program, and in this course, you create a project to make manifest in your life and most intimately in your community. It gives you a chance to see where in your life you are stopped from taking the action steps to make your goals and dreams a reality. And, in seeing where you get stopped in doing the responsible tasks for this project you create, you also see where you get stopped in taking the steps you need to make possible for your personal life. In doing this program, it was not about the project, for me, but it was about my life, my role in my life, and who I have become as a participant in it. It made me look at myself in the most profound, yet most fulfilling ways, that I couldn't help but evolve and grow as a person. For many in this program it brought people to a place of living their dreams. However, some people have layers to peel, as I do. In the end, it taught me what my patterns were that were destructive and unhealthy and that I knew deep inside myself I wanted to change. Those patterns I discovered were in the previous blog, however, with this awareness comes new action steps for making those goals a reality.

This is where my next step in evolution comes in. I registered for the Introduction to Leadership Program for March of 2010 and was accepted. I am so excited to start this program. It is a 7 month commitment, every Friday evening, and one other 3 hour commitment every week wherever you can fit it in. I will be doing that other 3 hour commitment on Wednesday evenings. This program is about your life. It is the beginning training program to all Leadership programs in Landmark Education, and the program that everyone who wants to become Leaders in Landmark need to take; however, it also creates a real possibility of becoming leaders in the world as well. You become empowered and fulfilled on what really matters to people. It causes and sees that what matters to you and what you are here for happens. It is about getting completely and totally resolved in every area of your life you are stopped, where you are resigned, resentful, or any other emotion that keeps you from living the life of your dreams. The 5 main areas it affects are - 1. Remarkable Contribution to the world, 2. Full Blown Self Expression, 3. A Future of Extraordinary Accomplishment, 4. Bold Leadership and 5. Representing Landmark Education.

My goals since I was a little girl was to be a writer, a singer and an actress. In taking on this next step in Landmark Education, my dream is to make one of these parts of my soul truly manifested. If I only accomplish one of those three things, I will feel complete in this lifetime.

During this break from the graduation of the SELP to the start of the ILP, I am working on healing myself at an extremely profound level. I am facing the darkness and preparing my heart, body and soul, for the next huge initiation phase I will be taking on; a role in Leadership in helping others heal themselves in areas I had to overcome. Even though I am still healing, it doesn't stop me from helping those who need me, and it gives me a reminder that I have so much to offer.

My hope by the end of the ILP program is that I will have started the hugging classes, started to teach Yoga classes, created a Play Group for my son, and be well on my way to being published.

All my Love,

Asttarte

Tantra and Spiritual Healing - My Journey

My hope in sharing this, is that for those who would want to work with me, and who are ready I inspire them, and for those who are not ready to work with me, perhaps this may push you away, but it feels really good in writing this, and being completely authentic with my truth! Happy Reading, if you choose to! :-)

This journey has not been an easy one. I, as a practitioner, got into this work for many multifaceted reasons that spirit gave me a huge kick in the ass, and made sure I heard the message loud and clear. If I did not listen I do not know where I would be right now.

I stumbled upon this journey when I had a major accident back in 1994. I fell on my head in a mosh pit at a concert called Lollopalluza, that if it wasn't for some miracle of a person's hand grabbing my ankle, I may have been paralyzed. However, due to the fact that I had been a major athlete all throughout high school, my muscles were ripped from my head to my toes, and this fall alone, caused all of my muscles to tweak their direction, and my entire ribcage was tilted, my spine forced sideways almost causing a scoliosis effect, and my neck being unable to hold itself up straight and look forward without turning it on an angle towards my shoulder. I slept for one whole year in bed all night long, with my knees bent, buttocks on my heels and my head rested on the pillow. At the time, I had never heard of chiropractic. I had only been cracking my own spine whenever I felt the urge or the pain too difficult to sit with it. I did this cracking of my spine on my own for three years, until I returned home from living out in MO, and stumbled upon the journey of what my roommate at the time called the miracle chiropractic treatment. I had never been to a chiropractor before, and did not know anything about it. This then lead into the beginning of my spiritual healing journey, and my initial reason in starting it; my health.

My initial reason for starting my journey was to heal the intense and insane amount of pain in my back; mostly what I called grapefruit sized muscle knots that spasm-ed every hour or every half an hour uncontrollably without warning and with very few breaks in between. The original chiropractor I saw put my spine back in a normal alignment, however, with a normal alignment and the intense tightness that my muscles were carrying, my muscles had no idea of how to relax from the complete solid fascia, and the crooked place my rib cage and spine wanted to stay in. I later called this muscle spasm attack fibromyalgia. This muscle spasm adventure lasted about 3 years of excruciating pain, and 4 more years after that of medium pain, to two years after that mild pain, and as of the past 3 years, no pain except on very far and few occasions. Now it is manageable, and the most I need to go to the chiropractor is once every month or two. And believe it or not, chakra balancing meditations and tantra breathwork practices will often get rid of the pain and instead bring me bliss.

My conclusion as to why I had this pain in my body is not because of an accident at a concert, but because of a lifelong journey of child abuse that was energetically stored in my muscle tissues. If I had never had that accident, I may not have ever known that I needed to heal what had happened to me as a young girl, and the role I took on in order to survive.

After coming to a place of balance, or a manageable situation with my muscles, I then stumbled upon Tantra. This was the next level of my intense healing journey.

The Tantra path helped me to create deeper connection to a boyfriend I was with when I first discovered it. Then it helped me to really let him go after the relationship ended. Then the Tantra practices helped me to open up myself to polyamory or open relationships so I could enjoy many different types of people and release the fear of abandonment, and the jealousy and possessiveness that most monogamous relationships are stuck in. This lead me into taking on the role as a Sacred Sexual Healer and Dakini. The powerful Tantra practices also helped me to be open to letting go of any guilt I may have had for allowing myself to be intimate with more than one lover at a time. It was very helpful when dealing with a serious relationship that did not fulfill me in my desires or needs, but where the love was still there and the relationship wanted to continue, however, with letting go of any expectations that it would give me what I wanted. It also allowed me the ability to function when the current partner wanted space and needed to be on his own.

Once I began the Tantra path, a rape happened. This was a reminder that I had not completed the rapes that happened during my high school, and that perhaps the core underlying the rape was not about a physical violation, but more about an energetic violation from the parents who were supposed to have taken care of and offered me, a young child at the time, a level of love all children need and deserve. The Tantra path, EMDR in Psychotherapy and the Landmark Education program healed me completely of the rape. However, after all these years, a new layer of healing is needed; a long awaited journey of healing the wounds from severe child abuse; where a deep long term relationship with any other human being obviously distracts me from facing, as merging with another fulfills my need for love temporarily. However, the frustration of the abusive relationship only keeps me in the pattern of avoiding why I attracted them in the first place. Giving myself the love that I need, filling the void that has been attempted to be filled by those unable to love, and getting completely healed at the core with the abuse from my mom and grandmother and absence from my father is where the power lies. My journey is in becoming the parents I wish I had, and being powerful enough to end the family history of abuse, and be a stand to love my own child in a way I wish I was. This is now where I stand.

After returning home from the Sacred Sexual Healers Conference this past Oct. 2009, I realized the deep patterns that I had been living in all these years. I learned how to love others as my way of dealing with the lack of love I had received. I learned that by loving others, I got a small amount of love that my heart was aching for. I did not know I was living in this pattern for the past 20 years until the past 2 months. My ability to love is so powerful, yet I have never truly been loved myself. I realized that I sought out men who were so in need of love, that I deprived myself the opportunity to receive it. I tried loving the poison out of these men, as my desperate attempt to receive love, from people who obviously were completely incapable of giving it.

I have chosen to take a step back, and no longer enter the realm of relationship with another; taking a break and instead protect my own energy to where it once got distracted by merging with another. Most of those who have entered my life have been seriously abusive and unable of giving me love in return, and my desire is in no longer being someone's mother to nurture and take care of, but instead attracting someone who meets me at the same intensity of love that I have to offer. I have chosen to use my Tantra practice recently as a means of facing the deep pain of the abuse from my childhood, and re-enter therapy with a specialist who treats specifically adults who were abused as children. I am now writing my story; my wild, vivacious, entertaining and dramatic story of going from a healthy relationship in high school, to the past 5 seriously abusive relationships, the start of my spiritual journey and more recently, how Tantra has been a God send and a miracle for me in my Healing.

I am still offering these amazing sessions in Tantra, as I use Tantra as a tool for empowerment, love, and full body expression and bliss. This is the reason for my choosing to help others find a way to start a spiritual path. This journey of spiritual healing has been a savior to me on a million levels and I have a very wild, entertaining and powerful healing story to share. My hope is that in writing my story, I will continue the process of writing it, and in the end, have a book to publish!

Tantra is a path that gives us tools to heal ourselves, love ourselves and receive love from another. Tantra is Intimacy at its deepest level, and the more we face our dark sides in what it is we are struggling with and facing on the inside, the more our outside world receives the benefit. Tantra is a gift to life, and with the right knowledge and education in how to use it, can create miracles in yours. There is no greater form of healing than intimacy and love, and with the breath, we can move deeper into love and deeper into intimacy. Sometimes what we first think is our greatest fear, ends up being our greatest pleasure!

See my Intimacy Therapy, Intimacy Coaching, Hug Therapy, Tantra Shamanic Breathwork, Kundalini Awakening Breathwork, Awakening Tantra Consciousness and more Tantra practices on my professional website on the page Awaken To Bliss. These practices, in my opinion, are the most powerful, and have contributed to my own journey in the most profound ways!


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